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I am Amy who runs YDNW, I have written a little bit of what I have been though that made me want to start this website up and how it effected my life.



The news article about a teacher, I will call him Mr X*, I am not able to name the school .I was doing very well with my education. Then one day I went into the classroom where Mr X was sitting at the computer, I walked over to ask him a question and that is when he did what he did to me he touch me in a inappropriate way for a teacher. I was scared and did not tell
my mum and dad straight away. When my mum and dad found out they complained to the head teacher and my mum and dad wanted to tell the police, but the head teacher told
them not to call the police it was a internal matter and he would sort it out. Everyday I would cause a big fuss about going to school.


I would hit my mum and dad, I was nasty to my sister, brother, nan, grandad and my aunty who all tried to get me to school, but I just wanted to be with my family as I felt safe with them.
The school said that I was being naughty, but I was not, my family believed me but the school thought that I was telling lies. My mum and dad were advised by the Education
Welfare Officer to attend parenting classes run by the youth offending team, this was very hard for my mum and dad to have to attend these meetings as I was not a offender,
I had done nothing wrong. Then one day it got so bad mum and dad were told by the Education Welfare Officer that I must return to school. I could not do it, so I rang the
police and they heard shouting, I put the phone down then the police rang back to see if everything was alright, my mum told them that I had hit her and my dad.
Then the police were at the front door, my mum and dad did not want me to be arrested for hitting them, so I was given a police caution. I told the policeman that I would return
to school, but I could not trust the teachers. I sleeping my parents bedroom on the floor, so that I was near to my parents.


I had terrible nightmares, I still have trouble sleeping now. In the end the Education Welfare Officer, the school the police liaison officer had meetings and decided that I should
attend school for a few hours a day, that still did not help me. So I stopped going to school. This kept going on then. One day I got so upset the Education Welfare Officer told my mum

and I that the Education Department were taking my parents to court. I could not see my mum and dad go through going to court, I got very upset and I took a overdose.
My mum found me and called my doctor, he said to get a ambulance and he would let the hospital know what the three types of tablets that I had taken.
I thought I would forget everything and my mum and dad would be free from court if I was not here. After all this happening I was taken seriously and I had to go to local
police station and I gave a statement, of what had happened to me with Mr X. My mum was in the next room watching via a video link. I had to explain
what had happened and what I was wearing.
I was very frightened as I have never been into a police station
before. After I gave my statement Mr X was spoken to by the police and he stated that he did not recall the incident
ever happening.
The police told me that however Mr X had been advised.


It was decided in my best interest not to go to court as I was so upset. The police passed the information onto the DFES for investigation. I had to see therapists to help me
but I still did not want to go to school, when I went to my next school, my mum would sit in the car park and I would only go to school for one to two hours and I had a lady that
would stay in the room with me. I still could not cope, so in the end my mum and dad decided to take me out of school, as they though it was the best action. I am home educated
and I do have lessons with other children in a small group and I am taught by teachers, but my mum stays in the room with me all the time. When Mr X was in the newspapers and
it said that he was on porn charges, everything that happened to me came flooding back to me. I am not sleeping and I get very upset.
I am still having counselling every week .Mr X has put me though so much. I think that the two years and
eight months is not a very long sentence, I read that he might be released as early as next year.



I will never forget what he did to me. The local paper reported that the Department of Education and Science Teachers Misconduct Team did a inquiry and the results were never
made public. What was this inquiry and why was it never made public? Why was Mr X still working with children. The school and Mr X should be made to say sorry to me and my family.
I would like to say well done to the people that took control of the chat rooms that was used by paedophiles. Please can everyone sign for Sarah's Law. I hope that readers understand why
I have wrote this true life story and done this website.


after a few years of muddling a long with life and having to go though the whole thing in my head again while the teacher was in the every newspaper, I started to have counselling again
to help me though it as it was a very rough time, I was going though other bad times which I hide away for many years to myself, as it was to hurtful ( I guess ) to talk about and I just never
knew how to speak the words to my close ones, nor did i think they would want to hear the words. it was painful for my friends and family to go though and hear the truth.


when I was 17 I was sexually assaulted by a family friend at a party, this time I did go to court but he ended up going free, during the lead up of the court case I started to self harm
very badly up 200+ of cuts/burns on my thighs/legs/stomach/arms/breast, some needed to be dressed by the nurse every few days, this became my way of dealing with every bit
of stress for a long time. I think I had tried to forget things/events/abuse from my past which I couldn't hide from anymore came to the surface and self harming was my way of
"healing/helping/coping" I had cuts saying "hate u" "f*ck u" on my legs, over time I am very lucky with medicines and creams I have been able to hide my scars, but some times
you can still see them. as of now I am 4 1/2 clear of self harming I am not going to lie it wasn't easy given up something like self harming, nor has the idea of self harming
completely gone ( I don't think it will ever go away), I just think of other things to do.


After years of being treated for depression I finally got diagnosed with a type of bipolar and a personality disorder. (I do wonder if my bipolar was ever brought on by
the experiences of the abuse I suffered in my childhood and teenage group.)At times I find it hard to cope and understand what bipolar and the personality disorder does
to effect my moods I take tablets to try and stabilize my moods, which I take everyday morning and night. I  also go to a mental health group every week for a few hours
where I do art textiles some of my work has been displayed in different art exhibitions  in my local area.


This year I got married to my lovely boyfriend of 5 1/2 years, he has helped and stood by me though all the things that I have

had to go through and do to become who I am today, he helps me though my bad days and helps me though my manic days.  He (along with family) helped me
to stop self harming and to sort out things in my life that I was hiding.  our wedding day was an amazing day spent with all our loved ones and close friends,
it was truly our happiness day of our life together so far! :D


 I have learnt in life that you can not allow anyone to take/rule YOUR life, don't let abuse be who you are, don't let the abuser take your life from

you like I did for a long time (and at times I still let it)! don't let the abuser win! fight back and speak out! it the best thing I did!

it doesn't have to be someone you know it can be a helpline / doctors /friends/ family/counsellor / write a letter then burn it what ever you

do don't keep it to  your self it never good to hide things trust me!!


 Amy x




*For legal reason i have change the name of the teacher and have not put the school name.









I would like to take this time to let you know that I am not a professional nor do I try to act like one,
I am simply running this website to help others get though what ever they are facing whether its current or in the past.


I am simply running this website as I have been though many different institutions in my life
time and thought that I would like to help others that may need help.



The facts and statistics that are on my website are those that I have researched and written in my own writing.
I have spend and still do spend time looking and reading all different books, research or website to help others
who are reading this website. I can give you the source of my research if need be as well just,
email me on 'contact us'.


Please bare with me while I am trying to update the website with
new pages and revising statistics.



The true life pages are of those who have contacted the page, with they own memory of what
they have been though, some have changed their names,
places etc. for their own protection.



Amy x