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My life.....
after being diagnosed.






This is my story of being diagnosed with a form of Bipolar and Personality disorder,



I have always suffered from depression from a younger age, I would go though periods of depression and anxiety,

it wasn’t until I was 20 and had given my job up and noticed that my moods were rapid and I decided one

day to log on to my laptop and I found my self typing bipolar into the search bar, and the first link on the page

was bipolar test, I thought why not, it can't hurt so as I went though the test questions I found my self clicking all the answers that summed me up and once the test was done, it answer came up that it there was a highly possible that I did

indeed suffer from bipolar.


The next routine appointment with my doctor I told him about the test and the similarities between me and the test answers and he referred me to see someone in the local mental health service, It was just 1 week before my 21st when I first visited the doctor who sat a spoke to me, my mum and Paul my husband (then boyfriend), as he listened to us talk, he took notes down
at the end of the session he said to look up two possible diagnoses one being
a form if bipolar and the next being a personality disorder



Each of us looked up the two and well Paul and my mum said they could see that I traits of the bipolar and personality disorder,

I eventual had a look and I couldn't deny I could see it, so one week later I was back in the room

with the doctor just two days after my 21st I was formally diagnosed with the type of

bipolar and unstable emotional personality disorder.


For a while it was strange to think that I had these and that I truly had a mental health problem,

I was worried for a while that it general meant I was 'mental', and who people would treat me,

so I started to take my medicine everyday and I would keep having to see the doctor for a while to monitor the tablets,

I was eventual moved doctors and she made changes to my medicine and help me get counselling,

over the last few years my medicine have been change some did work for while

then stopped and others never helped at all.


At the age of 24 (nearly 25) its been nearly 4years since I was diagnosed and I have come

a long way from what I was to what I am now. I still have my mood frequently but they have

evened out in a way so they are not so rapid, my anxiety at times is very high and I have

heart palpitations and feel dizzy but they only seem to come on when

I and stressed of nervous.



Some days I will feel like a normal person and live a normal life and other days

I find it hard to get out of bed to talk to people to do the simply tasks that many

people find okay to do, that the thing about mental health illness they can have good days

and bad days, this can be day to day changes or weeks or months even years people can

go though live living like that until one little thing changes their moods (sometimes I don't

even know what has changed my moods). It isn’t easy living with it, it can make me so tired and so

anxious that I could and would hide from

the world if if wasn’t for my family and friends.




Amy xx

January 2015











I would like to take this time to let you know that I am not a professional nor do I try to act like one,
I am simply running this website to help others get though what ever they are facing whether its current or in the past.


I am simply running this website as I have been though many different institutions in my life
time and thought that I would like to help others that may need help.



The facts and statistics that are on my website are those that I have researched and written in my own writing.
I have spend and still do spend time looking and reading all different books, research or website to help others
who are reading this website. I can give you the source of my research if need be as well just,
email me on 'contact us'.


Please bare with me while I am trying to update the website with
new pages and revising statistics.



The true life pages are of those who have contacted the page, with they own memory of what
they have been though, some have changed their names,
places etc. for their own protection.



Amy x